Wednesday, April 30, 2025

La Tienda (The Store) by Paul Delgado



La Tienda (The Store)


My grandparents, Agustin and Maria, owned a small corner grocery store across the street from Our Lady of Lourdes in East Los Angeles during WW II. It was the “communication hub” for the ladies of the parish as they stopped in after Mass, running errands or simply stopping by for the forgotten item on their grocery list.

It was 1942 and most everyone was struggling to make ends meet, including my grandparents. However, they were able to survive with the modest income from my grandfather’s job as a welder at a nearby sheet metal shop and from the proceeds of their little corner grocery store, La Tienda. 

My grandparents were more fortunate than most. They also owned a small one-bedroom apartment in the neighborhood which they hoped would bring in additional income and had recently rented it to a newlywed couple, Roberto and Elisa.

The newlyweds were very young. Roberto worked at a carpet factory on 7th Street and Maria worked as a housekeeper at one of the fancy hotels downtown and their combined income was just enough to cover their monthly expenses. Occasionally there was a little extra money left over to go into Elisa’s savings account, which was actually an old cigar box she kept at the back of the top cupboard in the kitchen. 

Elisa and Roberto were expecting their first child in a few months. Although overjoyed with the news, Elisa was now beginning to show in her pregnancy. She would not be able to hide her pregnancy much longer at the hotel. The couple knew she would have to give up her job in a few months, which would jeopardize the affordability of their home.

The young couple soon began to plan how they could survive on one income.  Elisa thought they she could take in ironing for some of the other working mothers. However, most of the other families were also struggling and it was unlikely Elisa could make enough money to help cover their rent.

Finally, the day came when Elisa could no longer hide her pregnancy, and she was dismissed from the hotel. Even with her secret savings, it wasn’t enough to cover next month’s rent, which was due at the end of the week. 

The next morning Elisa stopped at the little store and saw my grandmother behind the counter. 

Doña Maria smiled warmly when she saw Elisa and after a pleasant chat asking about the family, Elisa timidly said, “I’m so sorry, Doña Maria, we are unable to pay the rent on Friday.” Between sobs, Elisa managed to continue, “Please let us stay. We promise, we will make it up in a few weeks,” 

My grandmother hugged Elisa, “Ay mijita, I need to speak to Don Agustin and we will see what we can do.”

After checking with my grandfather, she let Elisa know they would be forgiven the rent this month.

“Gracias Dona Maria, we promise to make up what we owe”.

That week, Elisa was delighted as she was able make a few dollars by taking in ironing from some of the women in the parish, She and her husband were hopeful things would turn around. But soon, the additional work became too much for her, and she couldn’t keep up with enough ironing to pay the rent. She would need to once again approach my grandmother and ask for more time.  

A few weeks later, Elisa walked into the store and said, 

“Ay Doña Maria, I am so sorry, I’m afraid we just don’t have the money.” 

Again, my grandmother hugged Elisa and told her she would speak to Don Agustin.

Later that night when my grandfather returned home from work, she said, 

“Agustin… I have troubling news…. Roberto and Elisa still can’t pay the rent… 

What should we do?”

My grandfather with sadness in his voice said,

 “Maria, please speak to them and tell them we absolutely need the rent money by the end of this month, or we will have to ask them to leave.” 

Maria sighed and said she would stop by the apartment that afternoon and deliver the news.

Crossing the street Maria walked down the block to the small apartment and knocked on the door.

Elisa answered and broke down in tears as she invited my grandmother into the apartment. As my grandmother stepped inside, she noticed the little apartment was scarcely furnished. A threadbare couch and a tiny table with two chairs were the only furniture visible. 

Elisa was in her apron and had been ironing. A large basket filled with clothes stood in the corner. She explained that now that she was seven months along, she had been dismissed from the hotel due to her pregnancy and had taken on ironing to make ends meet, but the long hours on her feet were taking its toll. As my grandmother stood there, the aroma of Elisa’s baking wafted in from the kitchen. 

“Mija, what smells so delicious?” 

Gracias, Doña Maria, I have made a pie from the apples Mrs. Garcia gave me last week and I could not let them spoil. Mrs. Hernandez was kind enough to loan me extra butter. Please sit down and I will make us some tea and you may have a taste.”

Later that night, upon returning home from work, my grandfather sat down at the kitchen table. As he quietly sipped on a cup of coffee, he asked his wife if she had spoken with their tenants.

“Were you able to collect the rent Maria?”

“Ay Agustin” she said.

“When I saw how poor they were, I couldn’t ask them.”

“What did you do?”

Maria sighed as tears filled her eyes and said, “I’m so sorry Agustin, I just couldn’t ask them”.

“And what did you do?” he asked again with concern in his voice.

“I went back to the store and bought them groceries.”

Only my grandmother!


Tuesday, April 29, 2025

The Cove - 2018 by Mark Farenbaugh

 

The Cove - 2018 

by Mark Farenbaugh


"We’ll take shelter over there," Arnie said, peering through a pair of old binoculars. We had just come through a couple of long nights, taking turns at the helm of his forty-two-foot sailboat, and we all needed a break from the rough seas and unrelenting wind. The easterly winds were strong, holding us to barely a knot of progress.

We had departed from the southern tip of Cuba two days earlier. Our destination was the eastern side of the Dominican Republic, where whales arrive to mate. At first, we tried to beat the wind by skirting the southern coast of Haiti and the Dominican Republic, planning to then ease up the east side and find a good place to anchor.

Arnie and his wife, Mona, have been my friends since my college days. I’ve visited them in Norway several times, and they’ve visited us in the States often enough. They had decided to circumnavigate the Atlantic—again. I had joined them before, sailing from Funchal Island (Portugal) to the Canary Islands. It was an adventure: my first storm at sea, and at night. I was thinking this trip would be calmer—and convinced my wife of the same. “Don’t worry, it’ll be calm and restful. A quick trip without many delays,” I told her. So, we planned it out. We would fly to Cuba, board their sailboat, and cruise to the Dominican Republic. Unlimited wine, no complaints, and no politics were the rules of the boat.

48 hours earlier

My wife, Jenny, and I flew to Cuba on American Airlines. There were no delays—until we stepped up to the immigration window. Apparently, their database still had me listed as an attaché. Yep, a spy. Probably from my time in Nicaragua. They had me step aside and questioned me in a small room. Just a slight delay, I thought, since I was much older now. It was 2018, and I had been at the Managua embassy in 1996—twenty-two years earlier. Still, they kept asking what I did for a living, and I kept giving the same answer: nothing. I’m retired. The officials would make a call to someone, then ask me the same question again. I spoke to them in the best Spanish I could muster and repeated the same thing over and over: “Estoy jubilado, gracias a Dios.” (I’m retired, thank God). Finally, they gave up and let us move on.

The Cuban taxi driver wouldn’t answer any questions until we arrived at our destination port on the southern coast of Cuba. However, once we stopped and he was out of the car, he told us all about Cuba: a poor country with a broken economy that doesn’t allow business ventures unless they’re fully controlled by the government. Communism. No surprise.

We processed out of Cuba with the port immigration representative and boarded our home for the next few days: a sailing boat named Venture. Firm hugs were exchanged as our Norwegian friends welcomed us aboard. They had already been at sea for weeks, having sailed smoothly south from Norway to the west coast of Africa, then across the Atlantic and onward for a few more days to Jamaica. Once somewhat rested, they pressed north to rendezvous with us at this port in Cuba.

For them, it had been a stormy couple of days with rough seas that snapped the forestay (the wooden bow mast that holds the front sail, called the jib). Arnie had to crawl forward and cut loose the jib sail. He lost a sail but saved the boat. Exhausted, they made it to a Cuban port and miraculously found a carpenter who built a replica of the broken forestay hanging from the bow — a Cuban version. It looked like hell, but at least it provided some support for the main mast.

The next day, they had to reposition (in the same rough seas) to the port where we were — another tough ride against strong easterly winds. Especially hard without the front sail.

That night, Arnie and I caught up on all the activities of the past few days and the years since we had last seen each other. We stayed up too late and celebrated our reunion with a few shots of aquavit and more than several beers. Morning came early.

The next day’s plan was simple: sail from Cuba to the Dominican Republic, a short two-day journey. First, we would sail directly from Cuba to Haiti, then round the southwest corner of Haiti and skirt the island until we passed the Dominican Republic’s capital city, Santo Domingo, and find somewhere to rest. It was too dangerous to sail close to shore at night.

First delay.

In the morning, Arnie discovered that we needed fuel. They had used more than expected pushing the sailboat against the easterly headwinds and current. I was ready with some Spanish to negotiate for help, but it was Sunday. Worse, there was no fuel pump in sight. It took some time to locate someone besides the lone immigration officer, only to discover that the pump was farther away than expected — and there was no way to relocate the boat closer to it. We had to carry the diesel in five-gallon jugs over three hundred yards to the boat.

Thus, the most hungover slugs (Arnie and myself, in case that wasn’t clear) turned to the task. Hours later, we were finally ready to cast off. Four hours lost. No bueno. We had missed the calmer morning winds that usually followed a cool night.

We set off under power through the narrow inlet, exiting the protected harbor and heading out to sea until we felt the trade winds. Surprisingly, it was still calm, and we were able to hoist a full mainsail. Arnie and I thanked the gods!

Second delay.

The winds strengthened sooner than Arnie and Mona had anticipated. It was clear we would be sailing through the night and would see land (Haiti) by morning. Jenny and I were in good hands — Arnie and Mona had been sailing since they were young, as most Norwegians do. This was just part of what happens when “cruising.” Besides, down below deck, one could sleep well. So, we ate and had some wine until the shift sailing began, around nine that night.

In the early morning, we could see land. We were still on the leeward side of Haiti, meaning we must have drifted a bit north. Arnie turned the boat to the southeast. However, once we cleared the corner of Haiti, we were hit by the full force of the trade winds.

As this happened, I turned to Arnie. We had known each other for years. All he said was, “Global warming. It wasn’t like this years ago.”

Of course, I thought, it had to be environmental.

Within an hour, it was clear even to me that we had slowed in our progress and would not be able to continue on this course. The waves were repetitive and growing larger. Arnie and his wife began discussing what to do in their native language. After they finished talking, Arnie turned to me. We both nodded. I knew what he was thinking — we were coming about.

We turned hard to port and headed north, staying on the leeward side of Haiti. We would have to try to go around Haiti on the north side.

As soon as we had a full mainsail and a steady course northward, I noticed Jenny gripping the safety lines on deck. Her eyes were wide, and I could see the fear in them. Venture was taking the hard wind at about a 20-degree heel, with the port side close enough to the water’s surface to scare anyone unfamiliar with such a sight. I calmed her as best I could.

“Sailboats are made to do this,” Arnie said. He could see her fear as well. At this point, I joined Arnie and Mona in taking the helm through the night.

By noon the next day, we were approaching the northwestern tip of Haiti. Then the full force of the easterly winds struck again, driving rough water against us. There was no escaping it. We had to press onward. Hours passed slowly...

Third delay.

Just as we were about to round the northwestern corner of Haiti, the winds grew feral. Waves slapped the hull, and the sail groaned like a wounded animal. We were almost within sight of a long island just north of Haiti. Once we reached it, sailing would be ideal; the island would break up the shifting wind and current, allowing us to zigzag our way east.

But we couldn’t attempt it at night — and Arnie, Mona, and I were completely exhausted. We needed to stop somewhere.

Then I saw Arnie pick up his binoculars. I knew what he was looking for: shelter from the wind. We needed to drop anchor somewhere and rest.

Once he focused on an area and took a quick look at the map, he signaled for Mona to turn Venture toward a cove inlet. I turned to my wife and told her we were headed into a cove for the night. She was thrilled at the thought of calm waters. I was not. I had never liked getting even remotely close to Haiti.

Haiti’s history is scarred by decades of political oppression, violence, and corruption — all at the expense of its own people. Brutality and instability became deeply entrenched through years of authoritarian rule: the regime of Papa Doc Duvalier and his secret police (1957–1971), the dictatorship of Baby Doc Duvalier (1971–1986), and a subsequent turbulent era of military coups, assassinations, and fragile democracy (1986–2009). President Jean-Bertrand Aristide’s troubled terms (1990–1991, 1994–1996, and 2001–2004) further reflected the nation's ongoing struggle to achieve any form of lasting political stability.

Then came nature’s brutal force

In 2010, a devastating 7.0 magnitude earthquake struck Port-au-Prince, killing over 230,000 people, injuring hundreds of thousands more, displacing over 1.5 million, and unleashing further chaos as prison populations spilled into a broken society. With infrastructure shattered and governance crippled, the country faced an even greater humanitarian crisis when a deadly cholera outbreak swept through months later, killing thousands more.

Since I had been working in Santo Domingo one week after the earthquake hit, I heard firsthand from witnesses that were moving supplies to Haiti how the violent Haitian gangs were controlling the streets. I wanted no part of Haiti.

It was nearly 5 p.m. when we slowly entered the calm, shallow cove. The water was a beautiful turquoise and remarkably peaceful. Unfortunately, the locals had set out lobster traps all throughout the entrance and well into the interior of the cove. If the trap lines tied to the many floating water bottles got entangled in our propeller, we would lose the ability to use the engine — no bueno.

My wife and I stood on the bow, calling out the floating gallon-sized water jugs, while Arnie steered us toward an open spot where we could drop anchor.

Hearing the sound of the anchor chain flowing out from the bow was like music. Once the anchor was deployed and set, we all gazed out over a beautiful cove, its shallow, crystal-clear waters glowing a brilliant blue. The shoreline was outlined by white sand, backed by wooded hills that rose gently around the edges. Finally, we could rest.

Serenity interrupted.

Within an hour, we spotted several small canoes and people assembling on the beach. We weren’t close to shore — maybe 400 yards away. Not too far for a strong swimmer, but none of us could have managed it.

"Arnie, you’ve sailed throughout the Caribbean before. Have you ever encountered pirates?" "Nope."

"Please let me take a look with your binoculars." I grabbed them. There were a couple of canoes already in the water, moving in our direction.

No way, I thought... I could see the tattoos I had only heard about — and never wanted to see.

I didn’t say anything. Not yet. Maybe they are peaceful, I dreamed.

Arnie and I agreed that we should keep the ladies down below while we dealt with the visitors. A small canoe carrying an older man reached our well-anchored boat first. He started with a smile but quickly began asking for items. As he scanned the deck, he noticed the various knives placed along the safety guard cable. He started asking for them.

Then the next small raft arrived. It was made of four logs tied together enough to hold the weight of three persons. That wasn’t as surprising as the three very fit triathletes on it. Not an ounce of fat and they weren’t smiling at all. Each had the same tattoos. No bueno.

“Cell phone,” one of them said sharply. “Knife. Rope.” Another man pointed at the life jackets. “That. Give that.” Their tone wasn’t desperate — it was entitled.

While Arnie kept offering candles, matches, and hard candy, I sat motionless in the center of the boat, a towel draped over my lap, my hands hidden beneath it. My right hand gripped nothing but my 4-inch knife, relying on stillness, a cold stare, and the illusion of the towel to plant doubt. I wanted them to think I had a weapon. All I had was hope. My mind was racing. “What if the young bucks attack?” I could only barely wound their hands or face before the enraged gang- pirates overtook the boat.

I kept thinking: This is how it ends.
After a long period of time, they all departed. Somehow the bluff worked! Time for a new plan.

When all four of the locals returned to the beach, we tried to discuss what to do. My wife was too scared to speak. Mona and Arnie had cruising experience, but they had never faced a problem like this. They had no experience with violent people.

It was too dangerous to sail out of the cove, and staying seemed just as risky. We all stared at the beach, searching for a solution.

I finally broke the silence with a suggestion. “I hope you all realize that we are far away from any police protection. Whatever can happen here will not be investigated if they come out at night while we are asleep.”

“What do you suggest?” said Mona. I think Arnie already knew. “Do you have any guns?”
“Only a flare gun.” Arnie presented it and its four cartridges.

"Good enough. I recommend you all go below and get some sleep. I’ll stand guard. We have a full moon. If the winds die down below 5 knots, I’ll wake everyone. If they come at night and I have to shoot, we’ll need all hands on deck. Agreed?"

Everyone nodded. None of us were hungry.

“We can't stay here,” Jenny said softly, eyes moist with fear.

I gave her a hug and whispered for her to get some sleep.

"I’m sure they’re too scared of us to come back," I lied, watching her disappear below deck. Once she was out of sight, I motioned for Arnie to come over for a quiet conversation.

"Arnie, if I have to shoot someone, we’ll need to head for Florida. We can’t fight the wind going east. If we go west, the wind will be at our backs, and even if we lose the engine, we can still make it."

He agreed. “It’ll be a high tide, and we’ll motor out with lights off. There should still be some moonlight left to keep away from the reef.”

Then, he went down below.

I can honestly say I had never been so tense in all my life. I don’t remember feeling scared, but I knew that I was — and that fear was the only thing keeping me awake. Thankfully, the moon was full, and I could see in all directions. Even through the water, I could clearly see the bottom.

But then I thought: They can see me too!
No bueno.
All night, the moon watched silently. The beach remained still.

The hours crept by. Finally, around three in the morning, as I watched the wind velocity drop below four knots, both Arnie and Mona climbed up from below deck. We whispered our good mornings, then reviewed our escape plan, trying to recall where most of the crab traps were. It only took a couple of minutes to decide where to take Venture.

“Mark, go up front and raise the anchor. Mona, please look out for floating crab trap markers.” We safely departed the cove under moonlight.
I will never do that, again.

The Small Penis Blues by Brian Brown

  The Small Penis Blues

  They lived across a  gravel lane from each other in the bedraggled little desert town. It was just close enough to civilization to survive, but just far enough away to negate any real economic opportunities. Like most such places, it had  an interesting history and previous life as a real community, when the mines were working and a reasonable  person could make a living and create a life if they desired to. 

  But the mines and the jobs were long gone, and so the place was populated by those who live on the fringe, for good reasons or not. Cranky blue collar retirees who just wanted to be left alone to amass a pile of detritus in their yard before they passed. Exhausted old hippies who had come to the end of the line, used up all their options, and just needed to be somewhere that they could live indoors and survive on social security. A few normal folks who were there for some legitimate reason, and artists of all stripes, some talented and some not. It was a place where you could get by on 1,000.00 a month if you had to, spending your winters planning and scrimping for your escape from the brutal and life-threatening summers. And there was the desert; free, big and beautiful, mysterious, and as meaningful as you wanted to make it. 

      He was probably approaching 50, a handsome blonde man with fashionably long hair, a good headful of it. He was competent and clever, having left the educational system after high school and acquired many essential skills that allowed him to always live comfortably. He was an ace mechanic. He could operate heavy equipment. He could manage computers and a smart phone well enough to get things done. He was adequate at carpentry, welding, plumbing, and electrical work. He could stay as busy as he wanted to be, and make good money, much of it in cash and off the tax grid, leaving behind a network of handy connections and generally satisfied clients. In recent years he had begun to move things; almost anything. He had a huge, dually pick up truck and access to several trailers and was often off on some well-paid adventure. He moved a valuable heirloom organ from Nashville to New Orleans. He brought horses to Montana from somewhere. He would sometimes sneak a seriously overloaded trailer of heavy equipment from one  destination to another nearby, often late at night, allowing everyone involved to get their work done without those pesky permits and escort cars. And, along the way, (or so he said) he had an endless string of sexual encounters and collisions, always getting what he needed out of the deal before roaring off into the sunrise in his giant truck.

           It had been a good life for him, it was apparently what he wanted. A vagabond swordsman with money always in his pocket and an endless string of interesting and well-paying jobs just over the horizon. How was it then that he  ended up in this poor little town, a bit too far from anywhere significant? Somewhere along the way he had produced a son, and the son was here in this quirky place, working a government job of some sort that promised a future for him. The son had recently married, and he wanted to be a part of their lives, so he was here. 

           And besides, the winter weather in the desert was delightful, and on cold winter nights the local hot springs were a wonderful treat for tired muscles and socializing, and maybe more. For years they had aspired to be World Famous Hot Springs, but in the end, they were just hot. On weekends there were always adventurers, including women, stopping through from Las Vegas or Southern California. The constant parade of possibilities and encounters was an interesting and fun past-time while he planned out his next big moves for the upcoming driving season out there. He was generally well-liked, and why not? In a small town at the end of the road a competent worker was a  valuable ally to have when needed. 
           
           She had been a vagabond herself; a little too young to be a true hippie, but she was of that persuasion. Although that movement was long gone, back in the last century, the appeal of the ideal still captured the imagination  of some. A little older than him, attractive and maniacally optimistic, her life had brought her back to this little town. For many years she and her former husband had come through during the winter tourist season, driving a fantastical vehicle that could not be missed. A giant, custom-made camper that folded out into a small stage for puppeteering, story-telling, and other small and genuine forms of folk art and entertainment. It somehow folded back up into their living quarters, and for years they traveled the country, hitting a circuit of county fairs, community celebrations, and other festivals where people generally came to spend a bit of money and have a good time. They really were a traveling roadshow, with juggling, hula hoops, and whatever else they could manage to do competently. She was an excellent calligrapher, and the camper was decorated with beautiful and handsome writing and proclamations. Everywhere they went people stared and invariably came to see what they were about. They were out of time and in some places out of step, perhaps, but they did it with such good cheer and style that onlookers always chipped in something, and thus they made a living. 
And then one winter she returned alone. The truck was gone and the husband too, somehow their mutual adventure had ended. She had remembered the wonderful winter weather and the cheap living in this little place and the nice bubbling hot springs on the very edge of Death Valley. She found a nearly abandoned double wide on a generous piece of land, got a job, made the deal, and dug in for the long haul. She remained cheerful, ready for the next chapter of her life. Predictably she got way into yoga, it helped her immensely, but it might have been the start of the whole problem.

           Her new neighbor across the gravel road had spotted her instantly, or more accurately he had  spotted that her husband was no longer in the picture. She was older, but still attractive to his eye. He had seen her spending lots of time doing yoga on her porch, which he scoffed at for some unknown reason. As the days went by and the yoga continued, it began to annoy him, as did her incessant cheeriness. She wasn't sarcastic and didn't seem interested in the local gossip; did she think she was something special? What else are you going to do in a tiny town if not be in other peoples business? She spent her time  productively, tidying the yard, planting trees, re-painting inside, and turning a forlorn old trailer into a home that someone obviously cared about. She upgraded the neighborhood, and for some reason he couldn't stand it. 

           One day  she mounted a beautifully painted, meticulously lettered sign on her driveway fence. It said, "Smile and be happy, have a wonderful day!" He couldn't take it. Maybe he was having an off day, or who knows why, but one night he quietly walked across the gravel road with a broad tipped sharpie in his hand, and in giant, foot tall letters he wrote F#%K YOU diagonally across her lovely sign. And then he went home, never saying anything to anyone.

           When she discovered the vandalism sometime later she was hurt, angry, and bewildered. Who would go to the effort to do such an ugly thing? She mused upon it and considered the possible suspects, and it wasn't long until she fell upon the increasingly surly fellow across the street. She had always been friendly enough to him, but she was world weary and not interested in a relationship with anyone, let alone a self-styled blue collar swashbuckler, who was maybe just a bit full of himself. He had picked up on it, over the weeks his friendly chats had descended into a cursory nod of the head if they happened to be outdoors at the same time. It was him. She knew it. A few days later they were both at the tiny little post office picking up their mail, and she politely confronted him with it. Had he written this obscenity on her sign? On her property? Had he done that? He simply smirked mildly and said, "Smile and be happy. Have a wonderful day." Then he got in his giant truck and drove off, very self-satisfied. 

      A few days later she learned that he would be gone for several days on a trip with his son. So, early one morning before dawn, she took a couple of her fine brushes and some black and white paint and walked across the gravel road. She was on a mission. The back window of his giant truck was festooned with a handful of oval, black and white stickers from the various national parks he had visited on his travels. All the big ones were there, and she had noticed that one of the older ones was so badly faded as to barely be legible. She was going to fix that. Quietly and skillfully she re-painted the black edging and design of the oval. She freshened up the white inner portion, and re-did the  National Park Service design and logo. And then, in the middle, where it should have said YELLOWSTONE, in perfectly matched black letters she wrote; I have a small penis. So now, anyone reading the list of ovals of prestigious parks he had visited would see this;

Yosemite
Grand Canyon
Zion
Bryce
I have a small penis

The paint dried quickly in the fine desert air. Satisfied, she returned home and never said a word about it to anyone. 

    In rural towns where there is no home mail delivery, the local post office and its parking lot often serve as a social center. Residents and transient snowbirds fleeing their morbid winters for a season in the desert come daily to check for mail, chat with each other, and share gossip with the Postmaster. If you want to know who is not sleeping with who in a small town, the post office  is the place to find out. The visitors on their winter circuit stand around and chat amiably, checking out each other’s rigs and telling anyone who is interested where they are headed next. And, in a gentle unspoken competition, they check out the other guy’s window stickers. Each destination is an experience conquered, a place they had dreamed about visiting someday as the sub-zero winds howled around their houses somewhere in the upper midwest. Inevitably someone spotted the oval on his truck window. Word quietly spread the next few days whenever he checked his mail. Astoundingly, no one told him for more than a month; everyone was in on the joke except him. He drove from place to place, making his rounds, making money, and no one said a word. They probably smiled a lot, maybe conjuring up a vision of a midget wiener on this otherwise handsome specimen of a man.
 
   But eventually all good things come to an end, and this one did so in the worst possible way for him; on the internet. A local who just could not stand it any longer took a photo of the oval, in such a way that his truck was clearly recognizable, and posted it on Facebook with the caption, “How’s that small penis thing working out for you?“  When he saw the post, he was mortified. Temporarily catatonic. He walked out to his truck, and sure enough, there it was, a sticker on his window, proclaiming to the world his under-endowment. From 10 feet away it looked like a store bought item. It was only up close, under some scrutiny, it became apparent that it was a finely painted replica of the original, except for the ghastly declaration in the middle of the oval. As he got a razor knife and scraped the offending sticker off of his window, his mind was churning. Who had done this? Who had seen it? How long had it been there? It was now on the internet, for God’s sake, and they say such things last forever there. Someone was going to pay dearly for this. He tried to think about whom he had offended, or how this was pulled off. And then a thought came forward, or rather a memory, of an expertly lettered and crafted sign he had seen up close recently. He looked across the gravel road, and the bright, cheery sign still proclaimed “Smile and be happy, have a wonderful day!”  Except that his crude obscenity he had scrawled across it was gone. Like someone had done an expert job of repairing and re- lettering it. It was her. It had to be. As he went back inside he noticed his neighbor across the yard was on her porch doing yoga, and she smiled a big, happy smile at him. And she smiled him all the way back into his house. 
     His anger was welling as he considered what had happened. He didn’t know what his next move was going to be, but he had to do something or else he was going to explode. He was going to confront her, he decided. Not do anything physical or stupid; as mad as he was he knew that could only end badly for him. He just wanted to confront her. To look in her eyes and shame her perhaps, let her know that by God she had been caught. He didn’t think about it much beyond that. 

     He strode across the dirt road, in a straight line to her front door and rapped on it loudly. When she answered, he was first struck by what a small little woman she was; he hadn’t been this close to her before. She looked up at him and smiled.

“Yes?“ 

“Did you paint that  sticker on my truck window?“ 

She didn’t say anything. Rather, she reached down and picked up a small calligraphy paint brush off a table and very gently tapped him on the forearm. He had no idea what to do next. She smiled congenially at him, but in her eyes there was a flicker of something; mess with me will you, and I will mess your life up. She took a step backwards, then slowly closed the door, leaving him standing there, speechless. The word assault sprang into his consciousness. 

“Hey, you assaulted me! That was assault!“

No reply.

“I’m calling the Sheriff and having you arrested for assault!“ 

“Do what you must,“ came the cheery response from inside.

     And so that is exactly what he did. He didn’t really stop to think it through, he was feeling self-righteous and so he just went with it. He called the local deputy and explained that he wanted to file an assault charge. Some time later the deputy arrived, and the victim laid out his version of what had transpired. The deputy hurt himself a little bit trying earnestly not to laugh when he heard the part about the offending window sticker. As far as the assault, maybe it would be better if they talked with the alleged assailant before this went too far.
 
      They walked across the road and knocked on her door. She answered, and the deputy explained why they were there. He related the victim’s story about how this had happened, and how she had assaulted him. Well, she replied, it sounds like he left out the first part, about how he had come onto her property and scrawled an obscenity across her sign. What kind of an offense might that be, she asked, vandalism? Trespassing? Both, perhaps? The deputy gave him a long sideways glance. "Prove it!" he shouted, "You have no proof that it was me!" "True enough," she agreed. "What did the deputy think?" she asked. The deputy thought this had devolved into a playground argument, and he wanted to be  back in the air-conditioned office diddling on the computer. But of course, this is not what he said. He had, after all, officially responded to a report of an assault.

      So he asked the victim, "Look, are sure you want to go ahead with this? You are going to look rather silly, claiming assault with a tiny paint brush by a woman who is older than you and half your size. Plus, if I have to do an official report, I’m going to have to put that part about your small penis down on paper, and it’s going to circulate around the sheriff’s department, and then maybe the D.A’s office. Are you sure you want that?"
 
“ My penis is not small!“ he roared. “You wanna see it?“ 

This was a possibility she hadn’t considered, and she took a step backwards across her threshold and grabbed the door. Yikes. 

  He reached for his zipper. "Oh no, don’t do that," the deputy sternly responded, "or I WILL arrest you."

"On what charge?" he demanded. "I’m supposed to be the victim here!" 

"Assault with a tiny weapon?" she suggested. This was getting good. She was enjoying this. 

The deputy involuntarily burst out with a snort of laughter before gaining his composure. 

"Assault with a teeny weenie?" she offered again. 

The deputies eyes watered up as he giggled a little. Beneath his bulletproof vest a large belly laugh strained and pushed against his internal organs, yearning to burst free. It hurt.
 
He cleared his throat. "Get a grip," he told himself. He cleared his throat again, officiously. 

 "How about this; you’ve each got one strike against you as far as I can tell. How about if you each agree to stay off the others property, and leave each other alone, and we all just get on with our lives. No real harm done so far, so how about we keep it that way? How would that be?" 

"Fine with me," she said, cooperatively. "I have things to."

He was flummoxed, this had not gone at all as he had envisioned. They both stared at him, then as the silence progressed he could see irritation begin to creep into the deputy's eyes. "Time to cut your losses," his little voice told him. 

"Whatever," he grumbled. "This isn’t right, but whatever." He waved his arms in disgust, as if to push them away, and left for his house, defeated, at least in his own mind. Back on the porch, the deputy shrugged at the woman, who shrugged back, they bade each other farewell. He headed for the office and she for her yoga mat. 

 In his trailer across the road, he stewed over what had just happened. What had happened? The deputy had come, humiliated him a bit more, the woman had gotten in a couple more good shots, and he had gotten nothing. He realized now that he hadn’t thought it through before he called the deputy. He realized also that he had done this to himself; it wasn’t the first time this type of thing had happened. And, way down there somewhere in his brain he began to get that niggling little feeling again, the one that plagued him at times like this. The one that told him he just wasn’t quite as smart, or quite as clever as many of those around him. It kicked his confidence out from under him. It gave him what he thought musicians meant when they sang the blues.
      He lay down for a while and thought about the world, and his place in it. The more he considered his current situation, he could see no way to reclaim his dignity or get a little payback on the woman without things getting a whole lot worse somehow. What was he supposed to do, go around in the community proving to people that he was reasonably equipped? Go to the post office daily and offer to pull his flopper out in the parking lot for anyone who wanted to draw their own conclusions? Stupidity, of course. The more he thought, the more he decided that he did know what to do. Leave. It was earlier than his normal get-away, but the weather was already warming in the northern states a bit, and that was all he really needed. Go running down the road and loosen his load, as the old song said. He knew that lying here in this bed in this trailer in this desert backwater town was not going to help his deflating mental state. He had been through this before, and he knew that no one was going to help him but him. Get up, get moving, do something productive. He was no psychologist, but he knew that much.

     He was gone by the middle of April, a few weeks before his normal migration date. There was a rich guy in Wyoming who was restoring a vintage tractor, and wanted him to dissect, clean, and reassemble the primitive diesel engine. The deal included room and board of some sort, and his head was filled with visions of sexy cowgirls wandering in and out of this rich guys hobby farm. After that he had another job lined up in the beautiful apple country of central Washington, A serious piece of work on some monstrous, more modern piece of farm machinery. With a bit of hustling he could probably get a job to haul something from one place to the other, get the trip paid for and make some money besides. After that, who knows, something would come up, it always did. He pulled out early in the morning, towing his beefed-up flatbed trailer, his giant dually easily handling the load. He noticed the yoga woman was on her porch doing her exercises, and he controlled his initial urge to give her the finger. They watched each other, and then, she gave a small, neutral, tentative wave. He nodded slightly, not imperceptibly, and then was off. There was always next winter.  

Grey Miller by Don Taco

 Another character origin story from the DragonQuest RPG universe.


                                                        Grey Miller

I'm not one to brag, or even to call attention to myself under ordinary circumstances. In fact,

under most circumstances, I'm someone you barely even notice, if at all, someone that you see

but the eye just glides off and the brain dismisses and forgets. It's a gift from the universe, a

fluke, an odd combination of genetics, birth aspects, the influences of the planets and the stars, a

natural tendency to be quiet and cat-footed, to sit in the shadowed spot, and a genuine reluctance

to be the center of attention. In my youth, the village began calling me Grey. Just as well, they

might have called me Bland if someone had thought of it first. Or Dusty Miller, like the old fiddle

tune, being that we were the Millers since we were the millers of our small farming community. My

own mother even called me Grey, though she swears that I have a given name and that some day

she'll recall it. It doesn't seem important. It's just another aspect of my tendency to fade into the

woodwork if I sit still. It can have its uses. For one thing, due to the combination of my natural

tendencies and a few skills I have mastered over the years, I have an unimaginably high level of

stealth. I can sneak up on anyone. And slip away again. When I was in the Rangers, (more on that

later,) they found this valuable, and encouraged my studies.

Again, not to brag, but just to state a few facts that illustrate how unusual I turned out to be. I

was born under the aspect of the Cat. I can see clearly in the dark, and due to this and some other

training, where, given an appropriate light source, a normal human can see up to 60 feet, I can

read the country of origin on a gold piece at 562 feet. It's unheard of. The Rangers, again, found

this exemplary. I did a lot of sentry duty. All I had to do was stay awake. To guarantee that, I

would often be partnered with guys who just couldn't shut up. Sometimes I would quietly drift

away without them noticing. We were rarely caught off guard, though. And another thing I learned

during those long nights of sentry duty, is that if you have any halflings in your squad, assign

them to the last duty shift of the night. Breakfasts will be greatly improved.

I don't know when I first realized my fascination with shadows. I suppose I should have known it

from an early age, but it always seemed so natural. When we'd go to meeting, or visit someone,

I'd automatically move to the darkest spot. It makes sense now. My magical aspect is Shadow,

and that gives me bonuses that directly influence my tendencies and abilities. Again, it wasn't

until I joined the Rangers, when I left town after the mill burned down, that I discovered this. The

Rangers, and I suppose all military units, do some extensive testing to see what abilities and

tendencies you have, and how they can best make use of you. I was immediately rushed off to the

Shadow Weaver branch of the College of Celestial Magics, which was truly the most eye-opening

and world-broadening experience of my checkered lifetime. Growing up in a small farming

community, I knew little of magic, and never suspected I was capable of it. Everything changed,

and rapidly. Imagine discovering that you could not only hide in shadows, but willfully move from

one to another, even at great distances. Not to mention Shadow Wings.

But let me back up. There I was, an unassuming, forgettable young man of no notable heritage

and no anticipated future. I married a sweet young thing that they called Plain Jane, behind her

back. We were happy. Then came the year of the Black Disease. Over two-thirds of the village

elders were carried off by it in a matter of months, including both my parents and my uncle. The

disease was some horrid respiratory inflammation, quick and sure. Looking back on it, we were

undoubtedly particularly susceptible, being millers and working with dusts and fine powders so

often. I was sick for a month myself. Jane died. Before it was over, so did half the village. And

somehow, in the midst of all that turmoil and grief, the mill itself caught on fire and burned to the

ground. We had depleted the well attempting to stave off the fevers, and there was just no able

manpower to fight the fire.

I had no family, no prospects, and few friends left. So I took what I had, which didn't amount to

much more than a bedroll and a jacket, and headed out to see what I could make of myself in a

much larger world that I knew nothing of. Shortly, I fell in with a small trade caravan, and was

befriended by a pair of young men who had been hired as guards. They heard my story, and were

quick to tell me, "It's the Rangers you want to go see! Always hiring! See the world! Get trained!

Own a fancy sword!" With no better. or even other, options in mind, I made it to a city large

enough to find a recruiter in, and signed away a few years. It was the best move I ever made.

Except for proposing to Jane, which I will never regret.

Of course, I'm old and experienced now. I have an estate, investments, friends in high places.

I've travelled. And fought. And flew. So, it's hard to remember back to those giddy young days in

the Rangers, studying, training, seeing exotic places, and exotic beasts. But what I remember, I

remember fondly. It changed my life. It made my life what it's been. I still miss Jane.


copyright 2025 by Don Taco

The Pilgrim by David Molina

                                            


                                                        The Pilgrim



I was dog tired, the end not only of a long day but also of a long “vacation.” It is hard for me to call it one because it was a whirlwind of activity racing from museum to point of interest to historical monument to everything possible during my ten days in Europe. I slumped into a window seat of my 17-hour transatlantic flight in the last row of the plane, hoping there would be vacant seats to be able to sprawl out and get some sleep. 


I soon learned that it was a full flight when two gentlemen piled in next to me. They were solo travelers like me. I feigned sleeping already before the plane was to take off, cradling my head in my sweater in the corner of the bulwark and window.  I tried my best to tune out their conversation, but could not help hearing them exchange names and destinations - all of which I immediately forgot figuring there was nothing in it for me.


Once airborne, I perceived two different voices talking together. The voice closest to me was soft and slow. The farthest was louder and spoke more animatedly and loudly. 


Before I could doze off the loud one was rattling off all the sights he had seen.

The Louvre, Eiffel Tower, Latin Quarter, Notre Dame, Versailles. He sounded like me. In fact, his list of a dozen matched mine to a one. Then he ranted about the expensive restaurants, the stuffy waiters, the crowded metro, and the rude shopkeepers. In fact, this list matched mine as well. As much as we matched, I began to hate him. Just shut up so I can get some sleep.


Before I could doze off I heard the softer voice next to me say something that pricked my ear. “I spent two months bicycling.” The louder voice cut in and cursed the annoyingly rude bicyclists who got in his path and slowed the traffic. That was the last I heard before I fell fast asleep.


Midway between Europe and North America I stirred, stiff with a kink in my neck. That’s just great.  I sat up and noticed the loudmouth was snoring, but the passenger right next to me, the bicyclist, was wide awake. I groaned loudly as I sat up, turning by neck side to side.


“Sternocleidomastoid,” he proffered, then he added, “Put pressure like this…” demonstrating two fingers on his own neck…” and turn your head up and to the right, like this.”

Still groggy and aching, I did what he said.  “Keep it up for a minute or two, then stretch like this.”


I did as instructed and in a short time, I was feeling much better. “Thanks, Doc,” I offered my hand, and he shook it. “How much do I owe you?” He laughed. “Not a Doc. But you can tell me about your trip.” He leaned forward in anticipation.


I was ashamed to tell him that I ran from every same old boring tourist attraction that everyone and his brother-in-law did, like the boring piece of shit snoring next to me. I was certain I didn’t want to drone on about it any more than he already had.


“Did I hear you spent two months bicycling?”


“Yes.”


“Tour du France?”


He chuckled. “Not the kind of tour you’re thinking of. But yes, I toured France. Slowly.”


“Why would you want to do that? Riding a bike for two months… slowly. Sounds boring.”


He looked up at me, with a bemused, quizzical look…as if to say ‘What planet did you come from?’


I looked up at him with my similarly disposed mug. I felt the disconnect, but at the same time one that felt much better than the hellish one-upmanship with my boorish bore on my right.


“Why?” I asked. 


“A bike connects me to the ground. Also to the sky, and to the weather, and to the movement of the sun. It slows time, and gives me space.”


“Space for what?”


“The cycle path makes space for everything. Space for meaning, space for purpose.”


“Did I hear you say cyclo-path… as in ‘whack-a-doodle?”


“Yes,” he chuckled, “that’s me, I suppose.”


“No disrespect, Doc.”


“None intended, I am sure. Monsieur Whack-a-Doodle has a real ring to it, and I am privileged to be held in such high regard.”


I was not certain whether or not he was mocking me. I probably deserved it. I could have just let it go, turned away, and pretended to go back to sleep. But something was bugging me. I was not so sure it was him.


“You know, Doc, that I did Europe in 10 days.”


“And…?”


“C’est tout.”


“Well…yes then you are done.”


I got poked, wondering whether he meant to say what I knew I felt …or not. Before I could decide, he spoke.


“Riding a bike is slow, but a good kind of slow—for me at least. It gives me time instead takes my time. People react very differently to a person on a bike than a person on a tourist bus. Particularly in Europe, especially in France.”


“I found them a nuisance.”


“That is your choice. I started at Normandy and spent a week riding on the bluffs of Omaha Beach, and the surrounding countryside. I almost got stuck in Mont St. Michel as the tide began rolling in. I avoided the tourist buses and the large groups. The French were, to a one, gracious and welcoming. My guess is that upon seeing me pedaling with my panniers full of gear, although a stranger, I was no threat. They saw me as another human making his way, slowly, respectfully honoring the fallen. I remember a conversation in the Allied soldier’s cemetery with an older French gentleman, Jean Claude St. Marie. He was graciously patient with my broken French. Before we parted, he thanked me and the brave Americans who gave their lives to aid his country. I can’t tell you how many farmers offered to share a meal with me, or a camping place in their barn. My time in Normandy was a pilgrimage, not only a chance to honor the heroes, but a quiet, slow meditation.”


He paused as if to see if I was still tracking his story. He could see I was following what he said. He continued, as though he could read my mind.


“The difference between a tourist and a pilgrim, you may wonder? One is chasing sensations, which quickly disappear, only to require more sensations, and more again. It becomes the tourist’s dopamine hit, an addiction. The pilgrim is not searching for sensation. He is searching for meaning. Searching with respect…” 


He allowed the word to hang in the air for enough time for me to get the message. Then, after the pause, he finished. “It takes time. It goes slowly. But it can lead you to a better path.”


A year later, when vacation time came, it was a whole lot different.

























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