Friday, June 27, 2025

Ageless Living By Mark Farenbaugh



Ageless Living

By

Mark Farenbaugh


I am a man who has lived a long time, but I want to live longer. When I look in the mirror, I see the signs of my years - creased skin, silver hair, scars from times of recklessness or risk. I was quicker once, and stronger, but now I move with a stride more patient and practiced. Still, the idea of risk remains part of my constitution.

I have lived many moons. I worked double-time when others rested, earned my calluses that never truly faded, and burned through life knowing that it was short. I have built things that lasted—homes, friendships, maybe even a name for myself. 

Now retired, people assumed I was winding down.

But I’ve never asked Father Time for permission to keep moving. I ignore birthdays, noticing them only when surprised. What is in a number, after all? Sometimes I wish I didn’t know the day I was born. I don’t use pain as a ledger of time.

I pick up new habits these days - writing, learning languages, exploring new trades, cooking better than before, and seeking out new experiences. I enjoy reading, but only for an hour a day, to make time for movement and adventure. I don’t envy those who stay put and rest. 

I’m mindful that not everyone thinks the same. I know my life path has been an adventure - one that some might not have had the time to pursue, so I simply tell people they’re still young enough to find out. 

I move forward out of curiosity, not by the clock. I have lived many moons, but that hasn’t dimmed my desire to keep going. As the doctors say: Move or die.



“Don't let the old man in
I wanna leave this alone
Can't leave it up to him
He's knocking on my door

And I knew all of my life
That someday it would end
Get up and go outside
Don't let the old man in

Many moons I have lived
My body's weathered and worn
Ask yourself how would you be
If you didn't know the day you were born

Try to love on your wife
And stay close to your friends
Toast each sundown with wine
Don't let the old man in

Hmm-mm
Hmm-mm
Hmm-mm

Many moons I have lived
My body's weathered and worn
Ask yourself how would you be
If you didn't know the day you were born

When he rides up on his horse
And you feel that cold bitter wind
Look out your window and smile
Don't let the old man in
Look out your window and smile
Don't let the old man in


By Toby Keith

Wednesday, June 18, 2025

Escape by Don Taco

 Escape                                                                   by Don Taco

 

 

  The warden led the march to the gas chamber, with the very stern demeanor of the self-important. A small squad of guards brought along the prisoner. There were no ceremonies, no formalities, no last songs, no farewells. Once inside the room, the man was forced to sit, and heavy leather straps buckled his ankles to the seat. After he was secured, the handcuffs were removed and his wrists were also strapped into place. The warden's second-in-command, a phlegmatic man drily recited to the condemned man, "They say the best way to avoid any pain is to hold your breath as long as you can when you see that light turn red, and then take a quick deep breath. That way, you get a lethal dose quickly, and you don't struggle. They say you barely even feel it." The man stared tersely at him and said nothing. After they all filed out of the chamber, there was an ominous electrical click from the door mechanism, and less than a minute later, the ready light turned green.

  But by then, once he was alone, the condemned man was straining at the straps, tearing some of his flesh from his wrists as he ripped the leather free of the chair arms through sheer desperation. After rapidly unbuckling the leg straps, he stood and looked around. There was a huge pair of bolt cutters lying on the floor nearby, so he grabbed them. Some rational part of his brain wondered what they were doing there. There were no wires or cables to cut. And he couldnt remember seeing them before. Dashing over to the only door, he swung the heavy tool at the door's control panel with all his might. He was rewarded with a flurry of sparks, a loud pop, that ominous click. And then the door swung open. As he stepped out of the room, he realized that the small squad of guards was still there, eating donuts. They filled the hallway. There was no way to run past them. His elation turned to trepidation and his heart skipped. Some part of his hind-brain told him that his only chance was to leap over them, so he jumped. And it was then that he discovered that he could fly. Not the ungainly flapping of a large bird trying to launch from the ground, nor the graceful soaring of such birds in flight, but the inexplicable superman-like trait of pushing off from the ground and simply continuing to move forward through the air. He was landing clumsily at the end of the hall before the guards had even swung around. Grabbing the door handle and twisting it, he tore it completely free of the door, leaving no way to open it. He experienced a moment of pure panic. His heart thundered like a jackhammer. And then his brain, and his life, shut down, like flipping off a light switch.

 

In the control room, the warden turned to his assistant and remarked, "That was much more struggling than usual. I wonder what goes through their mind at a moment like that?" His aide uttered a low grunt of non-interest. "I have no idea," he said.

                                                                                                                                                 copyright 2025 by Don Taco

Ceiling Wax by Don Taco

 Ceiling Wax

copyright 2025 by Don Taco


  There was a book when I was a child. In the book was a stegosaurus. If the stegosaurus stood still, you couldn't see it against the mottled red sandstone cliffs of the desert country. So no one knew it was there. Best camouflage ever. The child in the book discovered the stegosaurus because the child could not stand still. He stumbled into it by accident, running wild in the summer sun. As it turned out, the stegosaurus was an herbivore, and was friendly. So was the child. They became friends. They had adventures. It was never clear how or why they could speak to each other. And, I also a child, never thought to question that when I read the book.

  I also as a child, could not stand still. It is a marvel that I read as much as I did, when I also spent so much time tearing around the desert bumping into things. Our mother, concerned that we might be too bookish, in spite of all six of us being hyperactive, would only allow us to check out seven books each on our trip to the library every Saturday. Every Saturday. Why seven? Who knows? We secretly got around that by reading each other's choices as well as our own. We were devouring books, as well as bounding around hoping to bump into a stegosaurus.

  I loved that story. I knew there were marvelous and unexplained things out there, waiting for us to demonstrate that we were friendly, polite, and could be trusted. And that's why I wasn't the least bit surprised when I met the dragon.

  The dragon wasn't fierce. Or unfriendly. Or greedy. Or any of the horrid negative traits the old tales all seem to assign to dragons. He welcomed my company. Looking back, as an adult, when I remember him, I wonder sometimes if I was just too young and insensitive to even begin to grasp how much that company, that friendship, meant to him. I also, at that age, never wondered how we could converse with each other. Did the dragon speak English? I guess so.

  He could fly, though, and so we went places. Met people. Giants. Ogres. Pirates. Had adventures. It was grand. It was even better than knowing a stegosaurus, if you can imagine that.

  And then one day, I discovered girls. Now, I know I was pre-pubescent, but there were inklings. And I began to carry their books home from school, and other frivolously pre-romantic cliches that I, like so many others of my generation, learned from the old movies that were featured every weekend evening on the television. There was one particular little red-haired girl in the neighborhood, yes, just like the comic strip, that occupied most of my attention. Her name was Sharon Blood. I'm not making this up. My life has been so consistently weird that I rarely need to make stuff up.

  And I never saw the dragon again. I blame myself.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Inspired by

 "In a land called Hana-Li."

Saturday, June 14, 2025

The Wake-Up Call by David Molina

 

The Wake-Up Call

Danielle!s last patient was ten minutes late, but being at the end of her long day , a very long week, a longer month, and a too-long life those few minutes gave her a chance to breathe. The never-ending line of patients was crushing her. The sick irony was that her psychology training was throwing her down the chasm while pretending to be the healer who had all the answers.

When she sat with her patient, a middle-aged male, Henry T., she leaned forward and feigned to be concerned, the way she had been taught in her years of her doctorate training. Within the first minute, she had him sized up: avoidant personality, persistent dysthymia, complex post-traumatic stress. The works. But nothing particularly different from the dozen patients before him, nor the ones she would see next week, and forever.

But one moment struck her.

“...and I try and try to be a good husband, but I feel like everything I do is never good enough for her.”

It was not the mere statement - a common one - it was that she had just heard a woman intone the exact same words earlier in the afternoon - Sheila S.

Danielle sent Henry T. home with a Zoloft prescription, doubling the dose of his last one. Before she left her office, she was curious enough to peruse Sheila S.’s chart. Sure enough, she discovered that Sheila and Henry, although different last names, shared the same address.

She returned tp her apartment, poured herself a large glass of Pinot, and pondered the couple who were never good enough for each other. She knew that their mutually self- inflicted wounds would not be healed with Zoloft, nor would her glass of Pinot heal herself. She poured another glass.

If my patients could see me the way I am, they would demand their money back. Wait, no, they have insurance, right? So it’s all good, right?

She finished her second glass, and felt it soothing and settling her. For the moment, right? They think I can help them, but I can’t even help myself. I’m a hoax, But at least a decent actor. That I can be proud of, sipping a little bit of self-congratulation. She opened another bottle, feeling as good as she knew she would ever be. She raised a glass to her ex-husband, a toast to his ghost. “Everything I did was never good enough for you, Frank.” After drinking that one down, “Here’s to you, Frank...everything you did was never good enough for me.”

Yes, the perfect couple.

Sometime in the wee hours of Saturday morning, Danielle awoke, head still buzzing and now beginning to ache. She barely made it to the toilet and had to wipe the floor with a mop. She sprayed an air freshener, turned on the fan, and shut the door. She set her head on the kitchen table and wept. I am such a phony.

Danielle counseled so many alcoholics, and she knew that she was at rock bottom. She knew enough to know that rock bottom could be a turning point. Still, she could not make that choice, ashamed to admit who she was. She had to hide, feared to be called out, despite her suffering.

What would my therapist tell me? Talk to someone. Start there. At three o’clock in the morning.

A thought popped up in her mind - go online. Find someone. When you are stuck at the bottom any motion is an upward motion.

Despite her misgivings, Danielle searched online counseling and therapy sites that were anonymous and available 24 hours. While they processed her credit card she kept repeating to herself, something is better than nothing. She had just guzzled $50 of wine. $50 for a therapist might be of better use.

“Hello, this is Sara. Who am I speaking with?”
“I am Danielle.”
“Good to be with you Danielle. How are you doing?”

“Not very well, Sara.” Danielle had a sudden urge to cut off the conversation then and there. Had it not been for the gentle kindness of the faceless voice, she would have easily thrown away the fifty dollars.

“I am so sorry, Danielle. I hear despair in your voice.”

Was it that obvious? A bit of anger flared inside her. This Sara probably has a script in front of her. Or maybe it was all AI-generated. Why could I expect anything for my cheap date with this unknown voice?

“May I ask you a few questions? You are always free to decline.”

“Fine...” Her teenage retort startled Danielle as it fell out of her mouth. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to say it that way, Sara.”

“Name me his name.” Danielle startled. “Who?”

“The one who hurt you.”

“Do you mean my father?” How would she know that? That voice... “Yes, if you say so.”

Her tears welled on hearing this. There was a long pause on the other side, as her sobbing continued for a long while. Finally, Sara’s voice continued.

“You know what you have to do, don’t you?”

“No.” Her anger sparked but was gone in an instant. “Yes.” She knew what she had to do, but she had not the strength.

“The hardest thing is the most necessary thing. You know what it is.”

Danielle gathered her courage. “Yes. To forgive him.” She knew she had to do it for her sake, not for his.

                                                             *   *   *

She woke up in her bed the following morning. The headache was a memory, but the empty bottles in the trash corroborated the late-night “therapy” session. She searched for her phone and redialed her last call. It rang and rang as if no one was home. She remembered that when she dialed last night it went straight to the online site. That was odd, but she left it at that and decided she would try again later. She wanted to talk with Sara.

Despite many failed efforts, she finally got hold of a man’s voice. She asked for Sara, or anyone else on the online site who knew of her.

“Ma’am, I have no idea of no therapy or no website. I’m sorry.” “Can you tell me who am I speaking with?”
“Yes ma’am, I’m Ernie Vatter,”
“Where are you located, Mr. Vatter?”

“Metropolitan Mental Health Hospital, Atlanta Georgia. Where you calling from, ma’am?”

                                                            *  *  *

Danielle never found “Sara”, and wondered if she really existed. As blasted as she had been those early hours, her mind could have created the whole story. And perhaps, she conjectured, it could be a troubling sign pointing towards psychosis.

After three attempts at Inpatient Alcohol Rehabilitation, she finally joined Alcoholics Anonymous and has been sober for eight years. She sold her practice and created a non-profit based on her belief that forgiveness is a gift that one gives to oneself. She helped many crime and assault victims to navigate the very difficult task of forgiveness. But she insisted that those who were able to overcome the terrible traumas which they endured through forgiveness was the best, and perhaps only way forward.

Her PhD. Degree certainly counted for something, but living through it herself meant far more. She learned, and then taught, how to forgive oneself... and that made all the difference.

Word Power by Mike Freeman

 


Word Power

By Mike Freeman

For some unknown reason, I decide to join Little League baseball. I am not a star athlete brimming with skill or confidence in any playground or organized sport.

During grade school recess, when picking teams for any sport, I am typically chosen in the bottom third of candidates. My only consolation is not being one of the last two standing at the end of this painful daily process. They are the real losers.

I survive tryouts and my first full season. I rarely start games but do play a few innings. I found out later League rules require coaches to play every player during the regular season games. I am stuck in the outfield since many of my fellow players could not hit the ball out of the infield at this stage of life.

I am a neurotic hitter afraid of being hit with a human-tossed hardball. I rarely hit the baseball since I am more concerned about it hitting me. I celebrate foul balls. Occasionally, I walk to first base on four balls when batting against a pitcher who can only throw wild pitches.

At the end of the first season, my batting average is .000 or no base hits. That is like a soccer goalie playing an entire season with no saves or a basketball player scoring zero baskets a season. I intend to keep this batting average the best-kept secret of my young life.

My next Little League season is an improvement. I catch a few fly balls in the outfield for outs and get a few grounders throwing the ball safely to the infield. I get one hit the entire season resulting in a batting average of about .072!

Everybody else on the team has a higher batting average, typically between .200 and .350, but now I have some numbers to throw up on the board.

In a moment of desperation, one time I lie to my teammates. I tell them I have more hits than l do. One of the teammates turns to another saying "Freeman says he has more hits than you!" My confidence that my one hit stands up well in comparison quickly fades.

Given my reputation, no one believes it and to my horror, they go to the team scorebook and look up the facts. It takes weeks to live this episode down with my Little League companions.

After two years of Little League, for even more unknown reasons, I decide to play the next level up called Babe Ruth. It is a fresh start with new teams.

We have a few practices where coaches and players get to know each other. A few of my Little League companions are on my team. Dennis is the name of our new coach.

One day, while warming up for practice, Coach Dennis calls the team together and says, "Freeman is the fastest runner on our team."

I am stunned. Praise like this has never come my way before. My Little League companions could be knocked over with a feather.

Coach Dennis continues, "We need to get him on base so that he can steal bases and score runs for us."

I am confounded and quiet. Fear overwhelms me as I wait for my Little League companions to explain to Coach Dennis, "Coach, you don't understand. Freeman can't hit. He can’t get on base to steal bases and score runs!"

Instead of saying anything, they only stare down at their shoes. Coach Dennis called us over to batting practice. I dread the upcoming failure that will become evident to everybody once I start swinging the bat.

My turn for batting practice occurs. After a few futile swings of the bat, it is obvious to Coach Dennis that I cannot hit. I cannot look up at his face. My Little League companions are giggling in the background. My 15 seconds of fame have come and gone.

Coach Dennis says, "No problem, I will teach you how to bunt."

He does. I practice it and gain some confidence with it.

On opening game day, I surprise the opposing team with a first-pitch bunt for a base hit! Next, I steal second base. One of my teammates hits the ball allowing me to score my first run. My teammates and people in the stands are cheering and congratulating me. I feel overwhelmed, this is a new experience.

The season progresses and so do I. Every game I find times to bunt for base hits. I am gaining confidence and swinging the bat normally, gaining more hits. I am stealing bases and scoring runs! At the end of the season, my batting average is about .354!

I play the outfield and my throwing arm gains strength. I begin playing third base more often. One time I score a double play by myself catching a pop-up ball and tagging third base before the runner gets back.

One time, I play catch with Coach Dennis and he tells me to throw the ball to where he holds the catcher's mitt. I nail it. He holds the glove in several other positions telling me to do the same and I do. He tells me I have a strong arm with accurate control.

Next, he tells me to do the same but throw the ball harder. Then I am standing on the pitcher's mound throwing to our team catcher. Turns out I have a good fastball and a natural curveball.

A few days later, Coach Dennis informs me and the team that I am the starting pitcher for the game. I have never done this before. He tells me to just, "play catch with our catcher." I end up pitching a no-hitter. I didn't hit one batter and even struck out a few!

I do not remember if we won that game, it does not matter. Coach Dennis had me doing things I never thought possible, all with the power of his words.

My second season of playing Babe Ruth baseball is better. My batting average is higher and I enjoy playing several different positions including outfield, third base, and pitcher. I possess confidence as an athlete and person.

The next year is my freshman year at Servite High School. I decide to go out for the water polo team and become the team captain. This begins a rewarding career as a water polo player and swimmer in high school and college. All due to Coach Dennis and his empowering words.

I have often wondered what happened to Coach Dennis. I never saw him again and don't remember his last name. I doubt he remembers me or realizes the impact his words continue to have on my life.

Words have tremendous power. They can build up or destroy. The Bible says  God created the universe through the power of His words. I will use Coach Dennis's example to build people up with my words. What will you do with your words? Casual words to a stranger you will not remember saying or intentional words to a loved one that will?

Thursday, June 12, 2025

In a flash

In a flash

By Ricki T. Thues - 2025

 

 

Hospice has been exhausting.

 

I lie in my bed with the quiet clink of dinner dishes and whispered conversations floating upstairs. Out of the window, the neighborhood murmur is drowned by the rattle of my breathing.

 

My breath comes broken. It is chains whipping in a metal pipe. Each draw of air scrapes the silence raw. 

 

Suddenly, my breathing stops. The loudest sound is the quiet between heartbeats.

 

I look up through the skylight over my bed. I see my earliest memory, a newly leafed acacia tree in the bloom of spring.

 

The tree sways in the wind and is pushed aside by my aunt’s living room. I stand naked except for my cowboy hat, gun holster and Roy Rogers cap gun. Cousin Susie points a finger, laughing. I draw my gun in an epic showdown.

 

Playing in the garage rafters, I slip from the beam scraping my leg across an exposed nail. Blood trails from me as I cry, running into the house calling for my mother. She calms me, cleans my wound and pins it together with butterfly bandages.

 

In the front yard my father lobs a baseball underhanded. I swing my 28” Slugger and miss the ball by a mile. Dad takes my hands and slides them up the bat. My next choked-up swing connects and flies the ball across the street and into the neighbor’s window.

 

The woof woof of the helms bakery truck whistle draws everyone into the street. I smell the yellow and blue van before I see it. The long wooden drawers are pulled open. I lose myself in a hot, glazed butterhorn.

 

In a forgotten corner of the library, Polynesia teaches Dr. Dolittle to talk to the animals; Space Cat floats in a spaceship, twisting and flipping in wide-eyed surprise; "The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you’ll go."

 

Holding the T-handle of a short length of water ski rope, I fly along the shore, my father pulling me along at a run.

 

Each vision is syncopated with the beat of my heart. It is the only other sound in the room.

 

“‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than this,” the priest says at my first mass, the requiem for John Kennedy.

 

Dressed in the Baskin-Robbins ice cream manager uniform, it is late at night. High school classmate Larry and his family of 12 enter the empty store. I serve each of the Dougherty dozen a different flavored cone (3/8 of all the flavors). Larry’s father, the owner of Dirty Time company, gives me a Spiro Agnew watch in payment.

 

The starter of a CIF finals high hurdle race fires his gun. I fly over the hurdles, my short stride alternating lead foot, four steps between. The sprint at the end snaps a finish tape across my chest.

 

Six hours of minute movements assemble the time-lapse animation under my 8mm video camera frame by frame. Later seen in moments.

 

At the end of the woodland stations of the cross is a clearing where a crucifix stands. The lyrics of The Boxer play, “I am leaving. I am leaving, but a fighter still remains.”

 

“You may kiss the bride.” My wife is so beautiful that I hardly notice my friends, uncustomarily costumed in pretty dresses and tuxedos.

 

“Where are the counter-seam bolts?” I ask. “In the counter-seam bolt department,” says the wood shop owner.

 

I have never driven a forklift, but at a labor call on the Anaheim Convention dock the foreman yells, “Who can drive a forklift?” I raise my hand and am delivering crates to booths in no time.

 

A string and pencil slip around two nails to create a compound ellipse-shaped platform for the newest X jet full-sized model.

 

The sound of my heart speeds to staccato as the scenes in the skylight hasten.

 

My out-of-tune Mustang is struggling up the cliff road hugging the cliff on the wrong side. At the last minute I veer right to avoid a full head-on collision with a teenager’s car. Both cars are destroyed. No one is hurt.

 

We are playing the video game I wrote in BASIC. My best friend, the programmer, thinks the game plays very smoothly. I show him four typed pages of code. He shakes his head, writes two code blocks on the back of one page and says, “I think this will do the same thing.”

 

A favorite computer client of mine asks me for my best consultant’s advice. I say, “Never trust a computer.”

 

Five seconds out the door on my first skydive, I am floating in midair like Space Cat. Like the spacewalking doodles I drew as a child.

 

We are standing in front of the little red house in Aguanga, looking out over a rural valley. My wife says, “I could live here.” I nod.

 

High over Oahu, my wife and I kiss, falling through the air as ocean, surf, beach, and jungle rush toward us.

 

The scene in the skylight changes to a leafless acacia tree backlighted with a brilliant purple, red, yellow sunset. The colors fall beneath the horizon, erasing the tree and sky.

 

There is a full moon centered now. Blackness washes rapidly from right to left with the frenetic beat of my heart.

 

The new moon is replaced with the full starry splendor of the Milky Way painted with a sparkling broad brush across the skylight night.

 

My heart stops.

 

Each star winks out to black in complete silence.

 

 

-----------------------------

“In a flash” was inspired by the poem “Hope”

 

Hope 

by Ricki T. Thues - 1973

 

it happened when i died

it took my mind some time to grow accustomed

to the dark 

i stared and watched and waiting rummaged through the list

of life excuses

-- how love-filled soul would live. 

 

i half expected angels or cosmos continuum or dull non-existence. 

the darkness cleared ... 

i saw soft satin skies like cloud covered horizons. 

with almost expert lace work, i saw stylish suited limbs

and cardboard shoes

and hundreds of inchworms 

consuming everything. 

Tuesday, May 27, 2025

In Search of Peace By Mark Farenbaugh

 

In Search of Peace By
Mark Farenbaugh

Stan hadn't wanted any of this. Not the debt, not the diagnosis, and certainly not the doctor’s urgent advice to move his dad to a major medical facility to perform a much-needed surgery. He loved his father more than he loved anything else. Well, maybe just a little more than his girlfriend, Sheila.

His father, Henry, was a good person to him. He had been very quiet about his life, what he had done before marrying, and his frequent travel. Even more so, when his wife, Stan’s mother, ran away with another man. That gave Henry a constitution that appeared to have been damaged by time. Since then, he periodically said to Stan, “Be very careful when choosing a woman, son.” Stan didn’t fully understand what that meant since his dad was very stoic and never offered details, but he had an idea.

Stan’s girlfriend, Sheila, was a kind soul—gentle, thoughtful, and disarmingly beautiful. Her perfect curves and effortless charm drew instant and constant attention from every single man in the small, one-bank town.

But Sheila had a rival of sorts: her nearly identical sister, Erika—a woman who wielded her beauty like a weapon to get exactly what she wanted. Though the sisters shared the same face, seductive curves, and magnetic presence, one glaring difference set them apart: Erika lived to spend money—especially other people’s.

She was generous too, often showering Sheila with gifts. But to Stan, that generosity felt like a warning. He couldn’t shake the worry that Erika’s lavish lifestyle might rub off on Sheila—that her indulgence could become a habit Sheila would one day adopt. No matter how hard he tried, Stan couldn’t keep up with the flood of surprises flowing from Erika’s hand.

Nor could he stop himself from feeling how lucky he was to have one of the twins as his girlfriend. She moved like liquid silk through any room she entered, and she wasn’t just beautiful, she was engineered to disarm. When they were alone, and she came anywhere near him, she would start whispering, pulling him closer under the pretext of being heard. Her body: soft skin, firm, and insistent seemed to beckon a response. It went beyond addiction. He was convinced he’d fallen for a goddess whose true talents didn’t reveal themselves until she was between the sheets, Sheila moved like she’d been born in them.

His father’s condition came on suddenly. One day he was working on his car, the next, he was in a clinic bed, suffering from chest pains caused by metal particles lodged too close to his heart. The doctors couldn’t explain how the metal got there, and Henry wasn’t telling them either.

He had begun bleeding internally, and the local physicians warned there wasn’t much time. He needed to be transferred to a better-equipped hospital...not just for more experienced doctors, but because it was the only chance to access penicillin.

It was 1940, and small towns weren’t included in the earliest waves of distribution.

But how would they pay for it? They never had any money. Not ever. The income Henry and Stan brought in would barely cover rent, gas, food, and electricity. Henry was a handyman, who had a talent for word work. Now that income was gone. Thankfully, Sheila would volunteer to visit with Henry, which allowed Stan to keep working at the local press, making books, magazines, posters, and fliers. He was proficient at work and could create relief plates, draw, set print, or repair at the level of a genius savant. There was nothing he couldn’t carve, draw, or modify, and it impressed his boss. A talent that the boss took advantage of as the work piled up beyond daytime hours. The logical solution was the added responsibility to close shop after long hours.

But no matter how hard he worked, there wasn’t enough money to fix his father’s situation, and the looming death was like a noose over Stan’s daily activities. He was getting desperate.

Then, one day while depositing his money in the bank, he noticed that there were several uneven white duffle bags of something stacked up in the corner. It was a hot summer, irritating to most everyone in the bank. There was no escaping how the constant heat wore down even the most energetic.

“What do you want me to do?” said the normally tranquil clerk to the bank manager. She was whispering, but Stan could hear. “We have to move this old money to the burn facility in the big city, and you haven’t allowed us to set it up for months!”

“We’ll stack it up behind the bathroom, there is sufficient storage there,” directed the manager, cleaning off the sweat from his brow.

Stan took in the situation and saw a possible solution—risky, yes, but if he was bold enough, it might just work.

The bank door closed silently behind him as he hurried out. A wild idea was forming, something tangled between morality and financial desperation, and he needed to talk it through with someone.

The only person that made sense was Sheila. But where was she? --------------------------------------

“How are you doing Mr. Henry?” whispered Sheila as he awoke. “Are you comfortable?” Henry was in such pain that focusing on answering was a torture he didn’t want to endure. Why

is she here and not my son? He thought.

“Where is Stan?”

“He’s at work or maybe the bank, Henry.”

“I hope he isn’t trying to borrow money.”

“But you need a surgeon’s attention. And soon,” Sheila said. Her voice was flat, emotionless. She just wanted to leave—and in her eyes, he saw something else.

Everyone seemed in a rush to get him into surgery, but he knew it was already too late. Then he caught it—anxiety flickering across Sheila’s face and calculating movement in her gaze. Suddenly, he knew he had to see his son before time ran out.

When Stan entered the clinic and reached his father’s room, he saw Sheila rising to leave. He stepped back. He needed to speak with her alone. And it couldn’t wait, not until after the visit. Besides, he still had to return to the printing shop.

“Hi sweetheart,” Sheila said quickly and kissed him on the cheek. She had such a sweet voice, and it calmed him instantly.

“Let’s go get some soda and ice cream,” as he guided her toward one of their favorite soda-jerks. She loved root beer.

With a pen in hand, he slowly drew the bottom floor of the bank. To protect any spies from seeing what he was doing, he labeled the unfolded napkin Main House.

“What’s that? A new house?”

“No, it’s the bank,” he whispered. Stan was getting used to the addiction of her overall beauty and charm and how it blurred his acknowledgment of the obvious dim lights in her head.

But he knew he could only pull this off if she were part of the plan. He needed a distraction.

“Listen, Sheila. I must save my father, but the only way I can do this is to commit a crime.” He finished drawing the floor plan of the bank and started to sketch several bags behind the bathroom area. It took nearly an hour to conjure up a simple plan. Sheila seemed to understand.

“You need me to wear that red dress you like so much? But I thought you said it is too provocative and made me look like a tramp?”

“Yes, I know. But like I explained, this time you’d only be wearing it for a short while—just long enough to get everyone in the front of the bank focused on you. That way, I can slip into the building, get near the vault without anyone noticing, and escape with a couple of the money bags while you hold their attention. If you sense they’re starting to get back to work, just fake a fainting spell. Collapse right there on the floor.”

A couple more light bulbs flickered on in her mind. But after her last visit with Henry, this new information was simply too much to process. Once they finalized their plan, they parted ways— Stan returned to the clinic, and Sheila headed home. She had to tell her sister. Erika always had instant ideas and could guide her through anything that left her feeling uncertain.

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“Hello dad. How do you feel?”
“Son, I have something to tell you. Please sit down.”

The clinic smelled of bleach. A low hum buzzed from the overhead light, casting a sickly yellow glow on the thin blanket drawn over Henry’s frame. Tubes snaked from his arm and nose, but none of it mattered anymore.

Henry could feel it—the cold creep of steel grinding closer to his heart with every faltering beat. The shrapnel had made its choice and so had time...his enemies had found him and were on their way. He had to get Stan away from this forgotten town. He should have done it a long time ago.

He turned his head slowly, wincing as he tried to shift his body from the pain. His eyes were heavy but sharp, fixed on his son sitting in the cracked vinyl chair at his bedside.

“It’s almost over,” Henry rasped, his voice barely more than a breath. “Doc says maybe a few days. Maybe a week. Feels like fire in my chest—slow and deliberate, like someone screwin’ a nail into the meat. And I heard him say I’m too weak to move.”

He paused, gathering what strength he could for a clear message he only wanted to say once. “Listen. You need to know something before I check out. Behind the refrigerator at the house... hidden in the wall there’s a leather satchel. It full of money—old bills, but they look new. They are clean. I was savin’ it for our escape from this town. But now it is too late. They have found me. My past life has caught up with me and we won’t survive what comes into town. It will wipe us out.”

Stan was near speechless. What!? “Where did it come from? Who is coming?” Stan’s voice squeaked.

Henry’s gaze drifted toward the outside view through the window for a second, then at the misplaced clinic door next to it. “You can’t trust Sheila,” he continued, voice firm despite the weakness in his body. “Or her sister. I know they’ve got the same face, but don’t let the curves and sweet talk fool you. One lies for sport, the other for survival; and you won’t know which is which ‘til your pockets are turned inside out.”

His body stiffened as he endured a half minute of coughing spasms. Blood was starting to tint his teeth. “Take the Packard in the shed. It’s got a full tank and a clean plate. Drive until this town is nothing but a smear in the rearview. You don’t owe this place a damn thing. Don’t let its peacefulness lure you in like it did me.”

His grip loosened, eyes fluttering, but a faint smile cracked across his lips. “I know you want to fight my advice, but even if I could survive the surgery, my past has caught up with me.”

“Who’s coming? When? Why?” he whispered, unsure if his dad was delirious, or dying with secrets too heavy to carry any longer.

Stan felt the rising fear of all the unknowns his father had just laid bare: A case full of money.
Assassins on the way.
Don’t trust the girls.

Get out...

Stan sat back, still stunned. His pulse thumped in his ears. They had lived being broke for years. He remembered hospital bills going unpaid, rust collecting on the Oldsmobile, the pantry stocked with nothing but dented cans. And now—now—he’s hearing there is money hidden behind a kitchen appliance all along?

Stan’s jaw clenched.

He stood slowly, staring down at him, his chest tight and breath unsteady—torn between sorrow and a rising anger that felt like betrayal. Tears welled up, blurring his vision as the weight of it all pressed down.

“Why didn’t you use it, dad?” he murmured, voice cracking. “How could you let it end like this? When you had a way out... when we both did?”

But he already knew. Somewhere deep, he knew. Henry didn’t say it outright, but the meaning was clear: the money was stolen. Stan pictured the Luxury Packard in the shed, always kept under a tarp, battery disconnected, as if waiting for a getaway that never came.

Stan’s thoughts were spinning. The surgery could raise eyebrows. Maybe even headlines. A man with nothing suddenly paying for a procedure with expensive doctors in the big city? The town would’ve sniffed around. And the police, they could connect the dots he didn’t even know existed. How much of his dad’s advice was worth following?

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Sheila rushed into her house. Erika saw her familiar confused face and knew something new had happened.

“Hello Sheila darling, how are you?”
“I just don’t know where to start,” Sheila said, swallowing hard. “Stan wants our help. Well, he

wants my help to rob some old money bags from the bank!”
Then she went on to explain the napkin Stan had drawn on, and how and where he planned to

enter the bank during the diversion.

Sheila immediately grasped the plan and saw that it was solid. She intended to secure a share of it for both her and her twin sister.

“And you won’t believe what I have pieced together during all my visits with Henry.” Sheila burst out. Then, she tried to retract it. “Oh, never mind.”

But Erika knew her sister and reacted quickly. “What did you hear sister? This could be important!”

Blushing at Erika’s sudden intensity, she replied, “Well, you know that I have watched over Henry for weeks.” She told her that Henry talks in his sleep, especially a few minutes after drifting off. Over several nights, Sheila heard Henry mutter about money hidden in the kitchen. And how no one could ever know, and that he planned to head west, but only when no one was watching.

Erika could feel a plan of her own churning with every second. It was getting late. Stan should be getting off work. “Put on something pretty, sister. Let’s get over to Stan’s house and see where he needs our help. He can’t do this without us!”

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Stan stepped into the clinic hallway, his feet moving without thought. A cold sweat broke across his skin, and his legs weakened beneath him. Panic was creeping in, slow and insistent. His world felt like it was tilting sideways.

He didn’t stop to speak to the nurses or sign anything.

Outside, the evening air had turned cool and dry. He climbed into the old Oldsmobile and drove home, his mind burning.

Behind the fridge? How?

One thing was already certain: nothing about his father’s life, or pending death, was what it seemed. The only one who could tell him, his father, was as stoic as ever.

When he finally wrenched the refrigerator away from the wall, a cloud of dust coughed up from the floor. Ants and cockroaches scattered. His hands shook slightly as he pried at the loose paneling behind it—just like his dad said, a black leather case, tucked into a hollow space in the wall like it had been waiting patiently for years. Stan pulled it free and set it on the kitchen table. He loosened the old leather straps and spread the satchel mouth wide open and caught his breath. Stacks of cash. Neat. Tightly bundled. Crisp, fresh bills that looked like they’d come straight from a vault.

He sat down to think. He couldn’t just start throwing money around or boldly using the money to save his father. Besides, his dad was very clear about the arrival of people hunting for him. Maybe even for this money. Then, he thought about the bank. There wouldn’t be any need to do the bank robbery, but how would he explain this new twist to Sheila. Would she understand? Could she handle it?

Stan sat in the silence of the kitchen, staring at the open case of cash like it might blink first. His heart was pounding now—not from fear, but from something far more dangerous: hope.

Then, like a lightning bolt, a couple of ideas came to him. He quickly put the money away and headed to work, he had to move quickly on his plans yet keep doing what he was paid to do to avoid suspicion. Stay cool, he kept thinking to himself. What would his dad do?

When fully emersed in his hard-at-work mode, ideas came at a good pace. He would finish up tonight and then pass by Sheila’s house to discuss their future.

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“Sheila, are you home?” Stan said while knocking on the screen door. It was dark and cool.

“She’s napping,” lied Erika as she opened the door. “She went looking for you, but you weren’t home. How are you doing, Stan? Would you like some lemonade?”

“Oh, no, I’m fine.” Just then, a provocatively dressed Sheila entered the living room, showing more than usual, and walked up close to Stan. He could almost feel his IQ take a step back.

“Wow, sweetheart, you look beautiful.” Stuttered Stan. He was certainly taken off guard. What were they up to?

“We’ve been talking...” Erika’s bright, perfectly strait teeth were part of a practiced smile. “And think your bank plan needs a bit more refining. You know that we go everywhere, together.”

Stan could feel his unnoticeable perspiration. He had lost control of this part of his plans but had to roll with it.

“Sure,” Stan said, “I was wondering how to incorporate both of you, but didn’t know how to make it work.”

Erika eased into her next phase. “We would love to help your father.” Then, she placed more into the expanded partnership and suggested they all spend more time together in the next few days.

“Where do you plan to hide before we get to the bank?”

“On the second floor above the diner. I have access and it has a clear view of the bank. I intend to hide there all night.”

In an unthinking way Sheila blurted out, “We could also help clean your house or kitchen. Perhaps cook you some meals.”

Neither were known for known for their culinary skills. Stan suspected that somehow Sheila had figured out about the money. And now, Erika was blushing slightly.

“I am very grateful for that help. Uh, would you like to bring me the food at my work, or maybe I could stop by here after work, if you want?” Stan was testing his theory...do they really know about the money? Maybe dad was talking in his sleep, again.

“That won’t be necessary,” Erika took control, “We would prefer to help you in your own house. Besides, we are a good team in a kitchen, just look at our own here. Always clean.”

And never used, Stan observed. They know.
Another part of his plans was slipping sideways. He had to adjust and act quickly.

“Sure, I would appreciate some home cooked meals.” He then guided the conversation back to the bank robbery.

“Let’s do this Friday afternoon. That’s when the bank’s busiest—more clients, more distractions, and the boss is pulled in every direction the last hours before closing. Everyone will notice you two walk in. Keep their attention with whatever drama you can manage. Once I see you’ve entered, I’ll move to the back of the bank, get in and out in three minutes, then slip back to my hiding place. I’ll stay there until midnight.”

He had two nights to secure what was left of his plan.

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Friday was scorching hot. Perfect. It was nearly two o’clock.

Five minutes to go. But where were the ladies?

By the time two-thirty rolled around, his heart sank like a stone. The bank would close at three. Maybe his dad had been right about them all along. But the doubt wouldn’t let go. Had they really betrayed him?

His mind raced, but he knew one thing for sure: he couldn’t break cover. Not yet. Staying hidden until dark was the only part of the plan he still controlled, and right now, control was slipping through his fingers.

It was a long seven-mile hike to his car at the house. The front door was open. The refrigerator had been swung away from the wall. As he crouched down, he could see that the money was gone. He walked briskly to the shed. The Packard was gone as well. Sadness overwhelmed him. He had lost so much. His mom. The girlfriend he loved. And the only home he had known. He slowly walked back to the kitchen to grab what he needed, then went back to his room to grab his clothes. He found the keys to the Oldsmobile. He needed to keep moving. His focus was on the map he had memorized that would lead him westward. But first he needed to complete a few final steps of his plan.

As he drove east, about a hundred miles out, he spotted the Packard parked on the side of the road. He had drained all but a couple of gallons in the tank and had deliberately rigged the gas gauge to always read full.

Sheila and Erika wouldn’t have been stranded for long. They got what they wanted: some money and the freedom to head for the big cities on the East Coast.

He poured five gallons of gas into the Packard and primed the fuel pump the way his dad had taught him. The deep growl of the V-12 engine brought a flicker of satisfaction—he’d always loved that sound.

This part of his plan was finally coming together, stirring a fragile sense of hope despite the painful fog of losing Sheila.

Next stop: the hospital up north, where he had secretly moved his unconscious father. After the surgery, they could both head west.

He was tired, but happy. It took long nights and two consecutive all-nighters to pull this off. He didn’t know exactly what his dad did in the past, but it didn’t surprise him that along with the cash behind the refrigerator were money plates and a couple of reams of special paper.

While perfecting his counterfeiting process, Stan left only scraps of poorly printed fake bills in the satchel.

He was sure he could find another quiet town to hide his father. Money can sometimes buy peacefulness.

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Ageless Living By Mark Farenbaugh

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